I don't know..

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 12:48 AM

I'm not happy nor go lucky anymore..
I am sorry guys, I don't know what to say anymore..
I know that there is a different feeling about me that you all get when I post on here and it's true.. I am different, I will always be different now.. It's not my fault - that is what I want you to understand.. I joined this gang and raised pure hell when I came on the block.. I know it was mean, indifferent, unpeaceful, and kiddish, but I thought it was funny as hell..

I just can't take much pride in BGR anymore really. I feel like I don't exist on here anymore IDK what it is.. I just feel like I have left my stain and that's it. Please someone convince me otherwise before I leave here.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 12:50 AM

I've turned into such an emo kid, I know - I know..

***Spud6*** · 12-14-2011, 01:00 AM

What in the world dude?

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 01:11 AM

I truly truly truly feel like the only ppl that connect to me on here is Midee1 and SD.. They always swoop down to save the day.. Actually fuckin LWC came n and talked to forever on chat. THANK YOU LWC.. I swear IDK what to think about ppl anymore.. they are gonna have to submit me in the nutward bo's.. Im a fucking idiot.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 01:13 AM

Aslan was right.. I should have taken his advice.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 01:14 AM

Aslan.. You know me, I know you..
There is a part of you that knows where I've been and what I've done..
I want you to also know, the purity that is in that skull of yours...
KEEP IT..
That's all that matters.

**Strikeout King** · 12-14-2011, 01:23 AM

Ballers you know if you need someone to talk to, I'm here or you can reach me on facebook

**Mr. Pike Central** · 12-14-2011, 03:14 AM

Ballers....I love you.

(No Homo)

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 03:29 AM

I love you too J Rod, No homo.. Thanks for that man.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 03:30 AM

If I get one from Midee1, SD, MVP2, King360, and OrangenowBlue.. It will mean a lot.. Seriously.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 03:32 AM

Midee1, thanks for those txt that night... I don't want it to be too outrageous but you are still a good friend and I need you again good sir.. It's that time and that serious again.. I just want ya to know.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 03:35 AM

It would also mean a lot if daneer fan said hi or hes praying at least.. Im sorry to sound like such a puss guys.. But the down low is this... I GAVE HER A SECOND CHANCE.. Same thing happened... and I swear - believe it or not - I read Aslan;s comments and it hit me the hardest... Man - You truly know where and what is going on in life.

**HawksRule** · 12-14-2011, 03:38 AM

Lemonade...Gucci...burr

Tailback44 · 12-14-2011, 03:43 AM

Ballers I dont know you from any other jimmy or joe on here but you seem to be having some serious problems here lately. Shoot me a PM if you need to talk pal. I'll try to give you a word of wisdom or two.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 03:52 AM

Thanks Tailback.. I know I gave you a hardtime for a while but I want you to know it was all in good fun..

Actually I'm going to go ahead and give every one of you my fbook.. Im not gonna post it cause I dont know how too.. But if you ask I will give..

I love you all like my fam, the fam I have never had.. You just dont understand.. The ppl that would understand is MVP2 and King360 Im really sorry again to sound like such a ***** but its true. I've truley had all I can take I hope you all understand. Tailback msg me and Ill try to play balll with you sometime cause you sound like you are from this area.

**RunItUpTheGut** · 12-14-2011, 04:52 AM

Man, if theres one thing ive learnt in life, its that there is no way in hell youll ever be able to read women.
The guys who think they can are complete dousche bags who dont know shit.
Trust me when i say this, move on. The only way someone can be completely happy is if they finally find the right person to be with and to be able to do that requires 100% luck.

And believe me when i say this.....tomorrow, go out with someone new. Seriously, i dont care who it is or even if shes fugly. Do it, have fun, and get wild.

Keep ya head up bro

NothingTrivial · 12-14-2011, 05:33 AM

Praying for you to find some peace in all of this man. Its hard to get a grasp on things at first when you entire world gets turned upside down. If I can do anything to help out just shoot a pm.

**Midee1** · 12-14-2011, 08:11 AM

Ballers Wrote:Midee1, thanks for those txt that night... I don't want it to be too outrageous but you are still a good friend and I need you again good sir.. It's that time and that serious again.. I just want ya to know.

I'm around brother. You have my number. Just sent you a text. Talk away. I'll either give some good advice or tell you something totally off the wall that will take your mind off of it. LOL

**Stardust** · 12-14-2011, 10:00 AM

I sent you a PM. Hit me up so I can hear from you what's "really" going on buddy.

**LWC** · 12-14-2011, 10:42 AM

If you need me I am on FB now. My semester is finished so there will not even be the chance of a distraction.

***zaga_fan*** · 12-14-2011, 04:15 PM

Sucks bro....
keep your head up and don't even look down that road again.
It aint worth it

**Aslan** · 12-14-2011, 06:05 PM

I genuinely wish you the best, bro.
Sometimes no matter how bad we want to be with someone or want it to work out with them, it don't. It's just not meant to be. Trust issues and bad timing is the usually downfall of relationships. I hate to say this, but when you get screwed over, sometimes you just gotta face reality. That's step one IMO of moving on. You can't feel sorry for yourself and want a pity party. Life is sink or swim, and sometimes you're on your own. You gotta help yourself before others can help you. I know we've had our differences and you probably don't want to read all this, but I wish someone would've told me this during some of my low points in life.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 06:28 PM

Aslan Wrote:I genuinely wish you the best, bro.
Sometimes no matter how bad we want to be with someone or want it to work out with them, it don't. It's just not meant to be. Trust issues and bad timing is the usually downfall of relationships. I hate to say this, but when you get screwed over, sometimes you just gotta face reality. That's step one IMO of moving on. You can't feel sorry for yourself and want a pity party. Life is sink or swim, and sometimes you're on your own. You gotta help yourself before others can help you. I know we've had our differences and you probably don't want to read all this, but I wish someone would've told me this during some of my low points in life.

Sink or swim... that's how it is.. Thank you Aslan.

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 06:30 PM

Last night it hurt.. It really did..
I guess I have somewhat of a small guard up in me because it doesn't hurt nowhere near as bad as last time..
I think I will pull through this one, thank you all for your generosity - I finally know where I need to be and what I need to do. No that isn't suicide talk - I'd never kill myself.

***Spud6*** · 12-14-2011, 08:16 PM

Ballers, I'm here man! I'm completely lost. I just PM'd you!

**Ballers** · 12-14-2011, 08:28 PM

Sent PM back Mr Perfect why did u change ur name? I liked the other better..

We will make it just like we always have.. Friends, Fam, and God are always on your side..
Sometimes I feel like friends play a bigger role than family, and I am thankful that I found this site so I have people to talk to about problems like this.. Not just sports all the time.

**vundy33** · 12-14-2011, 09:58 PM

Never give second chances man..sucks you had to learn that way though.

No matter how bad you want to, ya just can't. Whores will be whores. You just end up changing yourself into a mean person when it comes to this stuff, like I have, after you get screwed over so much, and you start to take advantage of these whores, instead of the other way around.

***Spud6*** · 12-14-2011, 10:46 PM

Ballers Wrote:Sent PM back Mr Perfect why did u change ur name? I liked the other better..

We will make it just like we always have.. Friends, Fam, and God are always on your side..
Sometimes I feel like friends play a bigger role than family, and I am thankful that I found this site so I have people to talk to about problems like this.. Not just sports all the time.

I changed my name for that reason bolded. He's the only perfect person!

**ekff** · 12-14-2011, 11:17 PM

Hey Ballers, keep your head up man... If you ever need someone to sit down and have a cold one with hit me up... It always works!!

**Ballers** · 12-16-2011, 09:04 AM

vundy33 Wrote:Never give second chances man..sucks you had to learn that way though.

No matter how bad you want to, ya just can't. Whores will be whores. You just end up changing yourself into a mean person when it comes to this stuff, like I have, after you get screwed over so much, and you start to take advantage of these whores, instead of the other way around.

LOL.. That has made my day vundy33.