[Old School Hound]

Isn't it odd that someone like funnyman, Robin Williams, would resort to hanging himself? Anthony Bourdain, the world renowned chef, also hanged himself. I used to watch his show on the Food Channel all the time. Couldn't fathom that either of those men would hang themselves. Mental illness doesn't care if you are the funniest man in the world or one of the world's top chefs or just an old Redhound. Both Williams and Bourdain were diagnosed with Lewy body dementia(LBD). Williams was diagnosed post-mortem and Bourdain, prior to hanging himself . I have no idea if LBD is part of my problem but I have become very forgetful. I have contributed it to brain fog from exposure to black mold but it might be worthwhile to be tested for LBD.

For those wondering why I am opening up about this on an online forum, I say why not. Maybe someone will be helped by seeing that they are not along in their struggle. Maybe I will learn something that will help me beat this illness. As far as people thinking I'm crazy, well, you all already knew that a long time ago. I've told you I'm crazy--- bat shit crazy. Maybe now you'll understand a little better, knowing about some of the monsters that crawl around inside me. Believe me, though, I don't want to feel this way. I just want a reset. Wake up from a deep sleep and start all over from birth. No guilt, no regrets, no self-loathing. Time machine, please...