[Granny Bear]

Thoughts and Prayers OSH

JP said it best when he posted above.  That was some awesome advice he gave, the absolute best.  That's some stuff that we all needed to hear, that we all can use.

I don't know where to start either but your post really hits home to me and OSH your definitely not alone.  I suffer from anxiety, ocd, and depression.  I'm doing alot better now than I was but I still deal with these things everyday.  At one point in my life I was in so bad of shape with these things, I got put on disability. 

My doctor's, which I was seeing alot at the time, they all told me it could take a year or longer, to get my disability approved.  They said be prepared to get turned down several times and I'd likely have my disability case appear before a judge.  I was in so bad of shape with anxiety, ocd, and depression, I never got turned down the first time.  It took two months, is all it took for me to get my first check.  That's how bad off I was.

I couldn't leave the house or drive because I was so bad off. Even quit fishing and hunting, now that's bad for me, a definite sign I wasn't right lol!  Shoot going from one room to another was a challenge. 

Idk what really caused this.  I was the happiest person someone could meet up until that point.  Just a big goofball about like I am know, again lol

I got better and pulled through.  I'll tell ya more about my journey OSH. Either by posting on here later or I'll have my wife set my messenger up on this site, and I'll talk to you through that. Just as long as she doesn't see where I've been calling her Miss Kong on here, I'll be ok 

I will say when it first started, I didn't want to be here anymore.  I had thoughts that I normally wouldn't have.  I'll tell ya more about it later if you want. 

I was as low as one could get with these types of mental illnesses.  I pulled through and I know you can and will to OSH

I don’t mind one bit talking about it.  One of the good things that happened to me once I started getting better.  I actually went back to college.  Got both my associates and bachelor's degrees. In my classes I often wrote about my experiences with anxiety, ocd, and depression, even in open discussion boards for everyone to see. Many of the replies I received was others who had past similar experiences and others saying they were currently dealing with these things. So we're definitely not alone.  It's more common than one might think.

Like me going back to college and getting my degrees, I had way more to offer than what I thought, and OSH so do you

I'll be in touch again shortly

I absolutely don't care if anybody knows that I have had depression, anxiety and emotional issues.  I believe everybody does at some point in time.  I also don't think Mrs. Kong would mind that reference!!    While I don't mind admitting my disorders, I'm not comfortable sharing details on a public forum.  I guess that means that I still have some improvements to make and growing to do.  That's okay.  As long as I'm moving forward; however slowly, that means I'm not moving backward. Fishing has always helped me to center myself, and calm my brain.

I LOVE baby belly laughs!!!!

Robin Williams tried more than hanging himself.  If I'm remembering correctly, he slit his wrists and took sleeping pills.  I think hanging was probably what finally put in in a coma and he died of asphyxiation.  Poor guy.  I felt/feel really badly for him.

There's nothing wrong with opening up on an online forum.  I joined an online discussion group one time, hoping it would help my depression.  It didn't.  But sure didn't hurt to try.

Hang in there OSH.  I have a feeling this will get better for you.  At least you know some of us care for your hateful old ass.

LOL.  I'm really not that old guys who yells at kids to get off his lawn. Well, not most of the time. 


I think one of the best things that come from topics like this one is that we learn that there are many others that suffer from some of the same kinds of mental illnesses- depression, ocd, phobias, anxieties, hoarding paranoia, losing touch with reality, etc...  No one is without some sort of mental condition that needs improving. I don't mind discussing my sickness, at all. I know that, in a sense, we are all in a similar boat. I hope spmeone is helped by me opening up about this.

Interesting list......let's see now....
OCD.  Some.  I like doing things in a specific order.  My money MUST be neat, in ascending order and turned the same way. 
Phobias.  Yes.....heights, spiders but that's about all.  
Anxiety.  Absolutely.
Hoarding.  Not in ANY way.  I may err on the opposite!
Losing touch with reality.  No.  BUT, if I did lose touch with reality..would I know it?